Doctors today

Breakfast = Porridge with seeds (324 cals)

Snack = Fruit and veg smoothie (200 cals)

Lunch = Salad, Brie and Muller corner yoghurt (337 cals)

1.00pm

Went to see the doctor this morning. Since my Endometriosis has gotten worse, I was hoping to be prescribed more painkillers but she didn't. I understand her reasons since they're strong opioid painkillers but if I'm in pain, surely I need them? I will have to talk to her again if they run out early.

Saw M last night, she's done amazing on her weightloss and I'm so proud of her. I'm in awe of how tenacious she is, not just with weightloss but with everything in life. She even just ate jelly for an entire week once to fit into a dress!! She has said that I help her but I don't see how that is. I don't do as much as I perhaps should. But if I help, then I am certainly not complaining. I feel as though me and M are on a journey to near perfection and I'm so comforted that I feel as though we are in the weightloss together. There is no competitiveness, just support.

Work and life are so busy. I'm struggling but not as much as I was. I've made sure I take time out for lunch today so I'm picking at my salad. I'm hungry but don't feel like eating. On the plus side, I've lost 1lb as of today. Still very tired so looking forward to the weekend even though I have so much to do.

Dinner = Quorn pie, mash, gravy and mushy peas (732 cals)

5.30pm

I haven't felt as many intrusive thoughts today which is good. Looking forward to dinner, very hungry today. I'm sure I'll end up having a few drinks tonight (probably on my own as B is off out for a night on the town). I really don't feel like going, I don't feel like I have the energy to socialise. Good news is that I'm going to go to a weightloss club with M. Although I'm worried I'm going to stand out like a sore thumb. Instead of feeling like the biggest one of the group, I may be one of the smaller ones as I'm not overweight. But we'll see. Off to watch a film with B and a friend downstairs soon.

Total calories before alcohol = 1594

(I didn't end up having any alcohol)